.Tuesday, November 27, 2007 ' 6:15 PM Y
& your love is all i ever wanted
scratch to death will be better i guess.
today we quarrel over the same matter again, volleyball.
yes, i know i'm very damn idiot stupid to pick balls. it looks idiot.
yes i know! i can tell and understand that. but yes, im very stubborn and still continue doing that.
i can only stand there running walking around helping them to pick balls.
yes, im tired of picking balls.
i helped them to train, which im happy with it.
i know you dont want to have a stupid laopo.
but you ask me not to go there to help out, i cant control myself doing that.
my dream is to win the next year tournament, when we, volleyball never even won once in the match. not even once!
now i cant train le, i would want to help them out, train them for next year. at least me, as a captain, cant play for next year, but i did put in effort on them. there's always a chance they can win. im happy. yes, im really very stupid to help them out. when they really wont feel glad and thanks for me.
hearing you said that, i do realised im stupid le. i know you do care for me. dont want me to do those stupid things. but i seriously really cant :(( if not i would have stop going since the first time i go help. going volleyball is also an excuse of leaving my house. i want pei you, be with you. if few days i never go out and pei you, while i stay at home, you'll be the one sad but not me sianx. me at home for whole day im already used to it. but you need me to pei, if not both of us gonna sad again. yes, i want to see you also...
seeing them play happily, cant join in with them the fun, i really feel very left out. and im very sad... but at least some of them talk to me, i can feel that im still part of the team. i know you would say you would want me rather be with you than them.. sianx ar sianx!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
how can we settle down???
