.Thursday, January 24, 2008 ' 8:06 PM Y
& your love is all i ever wanted
these few days, between me and papa talkings became worst and dao.. sianx.. really very sianx and sad. haishh..
maybe it's my fault not to finish listening to what you want tell me, then i cup my phone. im part of the fault. this is what you all always said to me, and what had always happened to me. not i purposely want you wait downstairs for me for long time. i maybe never listen finish to what you say. thats why.. i seriously dont know. that time i'm cycling, fetching my brother. maybe im being too rude i think. then you all will like scold me. sighh.. i scared that one day, i'll repel. means will quarrel and shout back to you all when you all say me and im not happy with it. then i'll leave house.. im really scared this day will come. i still dont know i'll have the courage to do that or not. but slowly it will if this continues. papa, why you always use that kind of tone talked to us?? rather hurtful though i seldom have the talks with you. but you're still my papa. why didn't you think of our feelings nehh? damn sian man.
and i'm seriously getting STM. i really forgotten what you told me for just that 1 second to help you do something.. not that i show attitude to you la. but why you have to say that sia.. say that like you talk to me, i'll like ignore. maybe these few days i should train my brain. my mind is getting for worst and forgetful.
and im really sad and down now... how i wish... im really scared i'll do something unpleasant to you all. which i really dont want... nevermind. you all dont understand what my mind is thinking of. and... i dont know how to say out my heart either. so please dont ask me..
